The ecstasy in the candle lore

What connected me to enjoy candles can be attributed to my visits in temples, churches and monasteries. I have nothing to do with religion but I take pleasure in travelling to places of architectural and historical significance. Candles and incense burning have been an integral part of our culture interwreathed in our  beliefs. Life and death, celebrations and commemoratings - all strike a match with a candle. William Shakespeare justly said: "How far that little candle throws its beams! So shines a good deed in a naughty world."

 

The aura created by candles burning in a holy place is reinvigorating to our senses. A sanctified place has indeed a lot to offer to human mind - blissful and beautiful. All depends on how one perceives such an experience. I tend to reckon with the fact that the spirit of the shrine architecture, ambience and the age-old tradition of offerings made to gods sheathed in man's handiwork adds to the splendidness of a divine place - candles are just an innate part of the spiritual flavour.

The vivacity hugging a birthday party is all about health, hilarity and happiness. The fun starts with a cake cutting ceremony which is incomplete unless candles are blown off. As the wick of the candle burns, with a flicker of hope, and the wax produces the flame, the candle burns shorter and shorter we know that life is not eternal but the spirit of our buoyancy breathes forever.

The faith reposed in a relationship on a candle-lit dinner setting radiates a certain warmth and worship that percolates to one's immediate surroundings. The dinner is just a metaphor buttressed by none other than candles burning to embrace the feeling that life is not frigid but friendly.

Mother Teresa once said: "Joy is a net of love by which you can catch souls" and such is the intoxication of life's ruination that after the darkness of the night disappears, the sun kisses the day with resplendence. The candle burns out at death to throw wide open to the enigma of creation spilling out in the aurora.

Candles are the first blush of life and flickers to the cusp of death. They illuminate the life's phases of nascency, marvel and celebrations just as sunlight beacons a bud to blossom into a flower. The brilliance of insight leading the way out of ignorance. Likewise there is a new beginning after a withering - the path of journey illuminated by light and candles do provide a mesmerising glow in darkness. Hope and strength coupled with thriving and vivaciousness is resplendent on life's lighted path. It is inherent in us to be afraid of the open dark pit of life that which is unknown, unexplored and unapprehended. A dull, insipid and vain odyssey has hardly any fascinating stories to tell to generations next. A candle wipes off the darkness and clears the  shadows fallen on a sapless life spreading large the vigour and verve. The bright light of which transcends ages and boundaries.

"Thousands of candles can be lighted from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared" - Buddha.

The verve around the voting

 

In a democracy like India which is as diverse as it could be elections every five years ring in much like a bugle call that signifies the start of a critical long drawn battle. A handful wakes up on time eager to take opponents head-on. The majority dilly dally and take much time to come out of their foggy senses as such is the human nature. The interesting part, however, tunes in the last leg of the fight.

 

Indians love elections because of its startling and striking nature. The lure of the chaos on the ground, showcase of public obscenity, the laxity from the everyday mundane affair which is an inherent trait in the work ethos of an Indian are too much at stake to be ignored. The social media sycophant and the so-called popular panel discussions on TV are no less imminent.

 

In relation to my age, maturity and interest I have not observed any election, be that national or state, as electrifying as the 2014 national election in India. It is certainly rip-roaring to the core. 

 

The frontrunners in the 2014 election episode are Narendra Modi of the Bharatiya Janata Party (BJP) and Rahul Gandhi of the Indian National Congress (INC) followed by oddballs like Arvind Kejriwal, Jayalalithaa Jayaram, Mamata Banerjee, Mulayam Singh Yadav, Mayawati, Nitish Kumar, Uddhav Thackeray, Prakash Karat and so on. In a nutshell a bunch of buffoons promote themselves to the 'idea of India' whatever that maybe on the democratic palate. Indian soil has produced many a statesman, scholars, philosophers and social reformers and impoverished political leadership never cropped up on an average Indian's mind but for the last decade.

A lot of writing has been on the wall since long. Demurral in decision making process and absence of stalwarts at the helm of democratic institutions led to acute indiscipline, nepotism, corruption, mistrust, lassitude and anarchy through and through. One can well imagine the wear and tear of the socio-economic fabric of a complex and myriad country, the panorama of caste, creed, religion, language, food, lifestyle and social parameters changing with every turn of the alley. As in flowering plants rupture of pollen tube makes way for fertilisation so has 2014 punctured the blight of the post independent Indian diaspora to unravel India's élan vital.

Going by the journalistic essays and research and relying on the prudence of my good sense I take it that Narendra Modi, as it stands today, is the clear frontrunner. His staid attitude towards governance as he has been instrumental in running the state of Gujarat in western India over 10 years although discoloured by the 2002 riot can of worms is the talking turkey political investment his camp is serving the Indian electorate. News of vote bank politics, secularism, polarisation of votes, riots pennon the media, panel discussions and political rallies yet to an aspirational young Indian such contents lack fuselage in the 21st century.

As a young Indian I never find the think tank, be it on primetime TV or elsewhere, discussing much on how do we find India's chassis 10 years from now on environment and climate change issues,  wildlife poaching, traffic and transportation planning (lived in India's three major cosmopolitan cities - Calcutta, Delhi and Bangalore; this comes naturally to my mind), building world class Indian universities and museums, theatres, libraries, preserving our heritage and architecture and imaging an Indian port of safety, security and freedom from religious and gender bigotry.

I feel ashamed that a chunk of our populace yet does not have basic access to water and sanitation, education and health care even after 67 years of Independence. However owing to a good education and intraurban backdrop I have transported my desires of an India to a greater next level and never did tomfoolery ideas of caste, region or religion venture in my 'idea of India'. I can strongly advocate my fellow Indians, young and productive, will think in the lines I outlined and postulate ideas and beliefs befitting to the organic and spiritual growth of India.

Having said that the 2014 elections in India is a harbinger of 'nest egg' for many unknown Indian faces. If you closely look at a rally rather than listen to the contender's speech you realise a lot of apt groundwork has gone into making a rally fructify. Road-side food makeshift vans, valet, stage fabricators, security personnel, young party workers, flag bearers, florists, electrical vendors, printers, drivers, reporters and cameramen, techies and a huge number of productive hands outsourced that goes without saying making brisk business courtesy this festive season of elections. Not to lose out on the election tourism - so many NRIs have flocked to India to exercise their franchise or the international media making a beeline to all the locations where the contestants are heading to.

I feel this is good for them as the busy period in India is helping them to upgrade their marketing skills and be productive. It also helps with a clear stream of income for the ordinary hardworking people as they have to sell their labour in order to break bread, send children to schools, install an electric line in their houses and a little extra income will help them increase their purchasing power. They can recoat the paint that have peeled off the walls of their house before the onset of monsoons, buy a bicycle or a two wheeler or open some savings accounts with banks or postal office. No one reports such stories in media which can be an interesting read - 'the election by-product'.

Most of the rhapsody centres around who is wearing a special cap, poverty porn fuelled by politicians and media editors (who claim in galore on camera that they are experiencing election heat outside the air-conditioned studios!), the TV interrogations in thy name of interviews, who is meeting whom, why are spaces in the electoral form left blank, why is a manifesto so late, is there a wave of an individual, or is a recent book by an ex-media advisor to PMO a tool for the opposition rather than shying away from the truth of confirming to the family run business of the 'idea of India', hate speeches flying in full colours from all corners but the essence of the discussion is 'who spread the animosity first', who's sharing the dais with whom and who's absent, how much flower petals had been arranged for on the day of a roadshow, who's trending more on the social media, what is the conspiracy behind a contestant being slapped and the Gandhian way of reaching out to the culprit with a flower, politicians crying on cameras, the brouhaha of Indian media of what media in the West and self-proclaimed intellectuals are saying about our candidates, and the list is endless. 

The burlesque is still not over and will continue till the morning of May 16. However there are some good journalism, analysis and comments coming out of the election heat too. Funny but intelligent adverts and punch lines, making women and young voters aware of the need for voting are not lost in the din.

India is a colourful country and the elections are psychedelic. Child-like sparrings thrown at each other 'We need a leader not a reader' vis-a-vis 'We do not need a bleeder and pleader', enthusiasts getting their body and faces painted with voting symbols, selfies with inked fingers displayed with media harping 'Did you vote? Get yourself a chance to win...by showing a selfie of your inked finger', nonagenarians being carried on backs to the polling booths, music blaring at rallies idolising slapstick contestants like 'Hamare desh ki aankhon ki taara hai Mulayam Singh' are quite a jesting. The musical chair competition is in full swing 'Kaun banega Pradhan Mantri?' but the grim news is there's no prize for guessing that! 

India's biggest gag show is on and the political parties' bazaar is proud to float the sale of 'democracy' discounted up to May 16 morning! Desfrutar shopping!



The culture concoction

Earlier this year during Chinese New Year celebrations, much to my surprise, a visit to one of the neighbourhood Chinese temples opened a new chapter in my life's understanding.

 

 

The temple on the eve of the Chinese New Year celebrations

 

While I was in India mingling with Chinese was not much of an option. The monthly visits to salons would get you to hire services comprising of mostly north-east Indians whose features were Chinese look-alike. Chinese take away was in name only. In India Chinatown in the eastern state of Kolkata was once home to tens of thousands of ethnic Chinese working in a nearby tannery but the population have now dropped to few thousands. 

 

So it was rather inquisitiveness compounded by the presence of a proportionate Chinese demography in the city which I presently call my 'home'  I decided to visit a popular Chinese temple on the auspicious evening of 2014 - the Chinese Year of the Horse.

The temple, sitting on top of a hill and dedicated to goddess Thean Hou (The Heavenly Mother), is a religious and philosophical conglomeration of Buddhism, Taoism and Confucianism reflected in the temple architecture and activity. It was well lit throughout festooned with red hanging Chinese lanterns and its posts and pillars sheathed in red. Monks continuously chanted Buddhist hymns. The ambience created - joss sticks and colourful candles burning, tiny little red paper flags blowing in the mild wind, fresh fruits offered to the gods, children and adults dressed in red milling in the crowd, artefacts sold and road side lunch wagons doing brisk business  - was reinvigorating to the senses.

Not only people of Chinese origin but also other nationalities visited the temple on the New Year eve. A good confluence of culture and enthusiasm ascended the temple premises.

The land of China is fortified to such an extreme that the whole world is overtly interested in finding out what is happening on the other side of the Great Wall. Evidently we believe people from the land of China to be so. What I found here was a festival much like ours - city folks, dressed in their best attire, accompanied by family and friends - paying reverence to god. I am not religious, however, the thriving fealty made me  happy to follow in the footsteps of the human chain offering candles and joss sticks and even donation to the temple fund. I was guided by temple usherette to the rituals, its history and architecture.

The temple premises carpeted in red hanging lanterns

The multitude of mankind weaving a tapestry is an exquisite bodhi I wholeheartedly embraced - so peaceful and rich in colour. The essence of spirituality was so deep in the air that evening I was simply bowled over by the gracefulness of a race, floating in tandem, with whom a mere association raises many eyebrows back home.

What force helps us to bind together on such occasions? In wilderness wild flowers growing unkempt emanates a strong heady smell that draws many a butterflies, birds and bears. They all love the pollen of the flowering plants. Does majority affect our thoughts and tribulations? Or is it something in the evening hill air or the rhythmic chants? Is life a celebration of itself latent somewhere deep within our reflexes exuding warmth and harmony unobserved?

A festival is always an interesting soiree. Bonhomie of rich heritage and architecture, flavours and fireworks, history and habitats, arts and intensely hued performances all bear a compelling testimony to vintage 'time'. An age-old tradition does not transcend period unless there is a connect with  community and engagement. The transcultural diffusion, practised as tangible and intangible heritage, acts as a catalyst educating and enlightening generations.

“Without culture, and the relative freedom it implies, society, even when perfect, is but a jungle. This is why any authentic creation is a gift to the future.” - Albert Camus. To me on that enchanting evening the place was magical and the people, even after bitterness among the neighbouring nations, were friendly. The wisdom of physical bonding permeates our limitless thoughts opening windows to nurture and nourish. Indeed a great way to celebrate culture - toast to that!  

The push for the passage

I am yearning for my spring vacation albeit in late March. More so looking forward to travel - the vast expanse of the earth is the passport to our "footprints in the sand" uncensored and unrecompensed. As a city dweller hopping from one burghal space to another I usually pick up places to travel earmarked for simplicity, nature's retreat and historical and archaeological treasure trove. 

 

These days most places known for tourism do have adequate transportation and lodging infrastructure. However few not-so-frequented tracks and locales of pristine natural and historical magnificence do need a dedicated resource mapping and planning in advance before we tread upon. In today's connected world getting information on any leg of a journey is easy and gridlocks seem to etiolate in no time.

 

Having said that the heart and the head sometimes do not sync in a world mired in gloom and despair. Acts of terror, war and blood bath, environmental degradation and the polarisation of the world in so many ways on nature's bounty arrest your thirst for travel. Places of historical significance and nature's myriad are fast losing the echelons of safety a traveller tags 'high priority' in his backpack. You pick one - Middle East, North Africa, Latin America, Eastern Europe, Central Asia, South-east Asia - and your country's Ministry of External Affairs website resolutely offers you a dedicated webpage on cautions of travelling to almost all corners of the world. 

 

My heart bleeds when I chance upon media reports of libraries burnt engulfing age-old literary and cultural reserves. I feel helpless watching on television the barbaric acts of dynamiting antiques and relics or torching shrines and synagogues of ethereal beauty holding keys to the trans-cultural diffusion. Alas neither will I be able to get to visit such antiquated places of both historical and sociological relevance but also dread the fact that such nonpareil treasures are gradually being isolated from our history and neighbourhood. 

 

Adding to this is the Machiavellian act of plundering natural resources. Deliberate forest and peat fires in South-east Asia, depleting reserves of coal and fossil fuels the world over, exploitation of natural resources and deforestation in Latin America, degradation of coral reefs and highly risking valuable bio-diversity in Australia, poaching in Africa, intense air pollutions in Asia, record wet winters in Europe adversely impacts the community and economic health at large. Rescheduling travel plans burns a deep hole in a traveller's pocket. More so when I and certainly many travellers like me do not fall into the lap of luxury travelling.   

 

I recall one of my relatives last year planned in advance to enjoy the serene unruffled sandy beach of Gopalpur in the state of Orissa in India in the autumn but had to put off his travel because of cyclone Phailin battering Gopalpur and its adjoining coastal areas. Gopalpur, ideal for sailing and surfing, was an acclaimed port in the days of Kalinga empire trading in silk and pearl with far off archipelagos of the Malay peninsula in the south-east Asia. The peaceful white beach of Gopalpur, lined with clusters of coconut and palm trees and azure waters of the Bay of Bengal, lost its rhythmic charm to howling winds and uprooted trees. Ecological restoration of such places is pushed back further into decay and abandonment.

The love for travel, however, is all-encompassing and boundless.

“Once you have travelled, the voyage never ends, but is played out over and over again in the quietest chambers. The mind can never break off from the journey.” — Pat Conroy

So what pushes so many travellers to go out into the wilderness and travel and explore and tell the world the glories of their journeys?

For me travel is the fun of losing myself into the voyages of introspection. This chaotic world full of noises and insanity drives me hard to hit the road less traversed (remember Robert Frost?) far off from glitzy tourist spots and hobnobbing with friends and families. The more I read and the more I hear my fellow travellers' story the stronger is my quench for travel. The desire to see and smell the uncharted, the longing for leaving my footprints behind, the freedom from the daily bondage of life's way and the liberty from the mind's jittery are all that help me spread my wings wide and large.

How much knowledge can I devour reading and watching quartered in a city's cell? Not much even in such dynamic times breathing in the stale air-cons.

Fresh air, lots of clear sunlight and white clouds floating in the sky and the starry twinkles at night unmarred by swanky architecture and high capacity urban roads - sometimes living in jagged terrains, with no recourse to basic urban infrastructure to fall back on, gives me the simple pleasures of life. I need a big room to take in the tall looming trees, birds flocking their nests in dense foliage in huge number in the twilight hours, insects cooing from shrubbery, the whiff of the wild flowers or the giant mountains redefining an entire landscape and the sun sinking deep on an orange coloured ocean whose soft ripples kiss the warm sandy beaches.

Moreover the euphoria I drink in travelling places for food, fairs and festivals is immeasurable. The colours of life become more vibrant here with each passing day. I tend to adrift in a sea of mankind whose concerns do not touch mine but its culture makes my heart and head twine and throb together excitedly.

I believe the places of historical relevance do enrich my insights when I touch them with my own limbs, see them with my own eyes and feel their prolonged presence standing quiet in the midst of their stillness.

At one time travelling to Almora nestled in the Himalayan foothills with temperatures dropping down below 5 degrees centigrade,  I recall, in the frosty wind shivering against the cold romancing the soft sun on my back and simply enjoying the afternoon cuppa on a roadside bench I fit in decently among few unknown wayfarers. The snow-capped mountain peaks peeled ravines between humanity and Mother Earth. I was in my twenties travelling alone headed to a realm of unknown never once dreading the anon. Till this date I strongly feel the archaic mountain range offered me the buoyant spirit to take the pilgrimage of the soul.

No amount of money or materialistic comfort can buy us a good deep night's sleep beside a gurgling mountain river under a canopy of shining stars. No amount of mirth derived from watching your kid bouncing gleefully with the dog on an open meadow can be equated with your community park experience howsoever beautified that might be. No amount of joy can be had from watching butterflies sitting on a dancing flower flapping its wings while you lie arms spread on a lush soft earth than viewing them on digital communicators. No books on history can offer us an opportunity to absolutely experience why 'history' really happened in a place unless we explore them physically arm in arm with the written knowledge.

Does anything stop you in your tracks to document a country, its people and culture so varied and rich? Pruning inward is an important aspect as Anatole France  said, "Wandering re-establishes the original harmony which once existed between man and the universe.” The idea of re-inventing myself in the heart of wilderness without the baggage and smelling a distant shore silencing the time and the world outside fiercely pushes me ahead for the passage. Travel, explore, dream and discover as it is certainly a therapeutic ritual of the soul. 

Remembering Rajiv - A child's ethos

 

These days as the election heat swipes India one finds wannabe prime minister writing open letters, intense confrontation between political bigwigs, the temple of democracy turned to a Bollywood bijou, more inapt persona eyeing the prime minister's chair (suddenly this position has turned lucrative), the hunt for a game is so rousing at the moment to score seats that the chassis of ethos of India is completely broken. The result is that the dumbfounded citizens, who are paying a heavy price to watch the circus, are already down in the dumps.  

 

One such story making the headlines now is the release of our late prime minister Rajiv Gandhi's killers. This too made murkier by none other than the political contestants.

 

I was in school when Rajiv Gandhi was assassinated. As a child, especially in the formative years, you tend to listen and devour more than voicing your thoughts. My demure and shy nature also did not push me to raise many a queries to my elders. I observed a surge of emotions rippling through the gatherings of family and friends; Doordarshan airing the devastating news relentlessly. The newspapers, wrapped in Rajiv's dimpled handsome face, opened to the acerbic chronicles of his passing away. Schools, offices, markets and other institutions remained closed.

 

On the morning of May 22, 1991 I remember my father dragging me out of bed very early in the morning not for school but for relaying the shocking news that had already spread like a wildfire gripping the nation. We had already hit the bed when Rajiv Gandhi was assassinated on May 21, 1991 at about 10:20 PM in Sriperambudur, India. The news struck me hard as I could gauge with my limited understanding then that we have lost someone who is an important face of the country. Not exposed to civics and political science classes in school yet I also did not have much knowledge as to who was more important - the President or the Prime Minister of India and that too a former one. Nor did I comprehend what LTTE was and why they were instrumental in wiping out Rajiv Gandhi.  

 

Nonetheless we had no choice but to listen to what our parents discussed over the newspaper reports, what they watched on the television and the many versions of the homicide sketched out in the gatherings that followed over numerous weeks trickling down to months. 

 

Being my father's pet I took to adoring Rajiv Gandhi early as I imagined a special similitude as my father shared the same birthday with him. A child's imagination running bonkers! It was easy for me not to make an extra effort to learn his birth date for General Knowledge examinations in school. Also Rajiv's name - both first and surname - were easy to be spelled out. To me what mattered more then was to learn different names and mug spellings of leaders and who held which vital position in the country. Moreover the despondent clippings of the bomb blasted site, grief-stricken demeanour of Rajiv's wife and children  aired in the TV unnerved my senses.

 

Someone had just lost his loved one. The dirge emanating from Indian soil reached far away shores with dignitaries from other nations sending in their heartfelt messages. The irreversible throe engulfed the entire nation, so I thought, and deemed proper to be in a pensive mood especially while behaving in front of the elders. 

 

Thereafter P. V. Narasimha Rao hemmed in as the ninth prime minister of India in June that year. However in the years to come by the nation, as is the way of life, matured in commerce and economy, socio-culturally, science and technology sculpting development. Elections happened, ministers and leaders hogged limelights underpinning both success and failures in their tenures, and India metamorphosed as a centroidal government in the world political diaspora. So did my germinating years. 

 

Today when my understanding to Indian politics has improved, albeit slightly, and Rajiv Gandhi's killers after a period of 23 years should be freed or not plaguing the social media discussions which has since long taken over the rein from the living room exchanges I find myself reliving the past once more.

 

Although we are in the 21st century and still there is no clear sign yet to the end of political wars encumbering the nations worldwide I find it ironic reviewing whether Rajiv's killers should be freed or not. Moreover a country like India, who still cannot put a full stop to its prying neighbours, evokes mixed sentiments debating and discussing freedom of convicts tried for killing a former prime minister especially when the country goes to vote its 16th national government in a span of two months.

 

What has gone entirely wrong in the reasoning is that the post of the prime minister of a nation plays no relevance now. The number crunching, gormandising political parties are losing no time cashing on the verdict, recently passed by the Supreme Court of India, lest they fall behind wooing the voter's sentiments at the appropriate time. Neither am I responsible enough to justify or endorse any action initiated by a political party but what pains me now is to find myself accountable to the confused minds of a child I had long cast off. The knowledge gained over the years to respect a country's institutions and the doctrines of the founding fathers of our Constitution suddenly seems to be decrepit. Going by the newspaper features we, as citizens of India, have certainly failed Rajiv Gandhi. 

 

Over two decades passed and as a nation we are still flummoxed when the question arises in dealing with culprits as we all view our embarrassing shadows while facing the mirror of mankind.   

What drives us to consumerism

This is an era where we travel miles to sit down to conferences facing experts, diplomats and business people to discuss climate change topics, discuss peace on malignant wars that transcends centuries and generations, discuss commerce and trade for a bigger and better share of the revenue pie. It is evident that human race has gradually steeped into gluttony digging up and making use of natural resources more than what is required, acting on ethnic cleansing to get hold of occupied land for improved commercialism and complete clout. Citing circumstantial aspects - religion and race, caste and creed, clan and community is but a disguise under a restrained human mask.

If you are a city dweller and happen to hop onto any shopping complex you'll find people milling all over the premises clinging onto hyaline flashy and huge branded paper or polythene bags and at times heavier than their physical capacity to carry. Earlier I wondered how rich people are growing and so fast. Even while dining out I observed people placed next to your table was more interested in finding out what platter and drinks you ordered before making up their minds for ordering dinner. The bigger the serving on your table the better is the hospitality of the dining room manager. The "more you shop till you drop" phenomenon is so arresting that it sets a benchmark for respect and social graces for the one who's carrying the excess baggage.

I have also observed mood shifts not just restricted to adults but children as well if you're unable to buy something you fiercely desire. The tiny ones cry out at the top of their voices while the adults are smart enough to label the products either as tacky or start comparing one brand with the other silently making their way out of the shop with a hard-nosed face. Sometimes feigning to be smarting under unruly behaviour of the dull sales people hired at the shop.

Today our lifestyle is more showy and snazzy measured by yardsticks like the number of cars we own, the pockets of the city where we live, the brands we wear, the solitaire we possess, the type of membership to a club or lounge we have - priviledged, gold class or premium, the number of real estate properties we own, which schools or foreign universities we are sending our children to study, the number of company shares we own in the stock market and whether we are a prized proprietor of a boutique hotel and spa in an upmarket place and the number of followers we have in social media platform. Family reunions and festivals are weighed much on the gifts we exchange bragging our worth in monetary terms. The whole mankind, it seems, is quantifiable.

The age-old adage "Cut your coat according to your cloth" holds no sway in this era. The owning and the buying habit is epidemic. It is a naked truth that behind all the arty show the credit market takes the full advantage having the last laugh. The labyrinthine of splurge is so intoxicating that certain psychoanalysts prescribe retail therapy for people with dismal outlook towards life!

Feeling miserable I have tried my hands on retail therapy or spa outing but never sensed any magic healing. I wonder how throwing money at tangible goods will help uplift one's mood when actually you're burning a hole in your pocket.

Does tying to emulate other people's behavioural and consumption pattern fog our senses? We get caught in our own web not knowing where to tie the leash. The results are ominous indeed. Feeling low, tensions wrought, outburst of frustations in open forums, child spanking, excess drinking to erase your mind off the carnal failures - we are no longer able to rein in our lives.

Surveys worldwide suggest urban people flocking to yoga classes or taking recourse to spiritual sessions have leaped over the years. And so has the healthy living business show. So has the gun violence, more stories of rape making headlines the world over and more erosive treatment towards Mother Earth for the already bloated city resulting in extreme weather shifts in both the world hemispheres.

Who is at fault putting one's fodder to another's mouth, wasting resources in the name of imperforate development? No prize for guessing that! We, human beings, cannot live in harmony with each other, neither are we thankful for what we already have upsetting the entire ecological system of the world. Even today I do not understand what amount of booty we all should have to satiate our needs. Natural resources are limited but we have devoured them to such an extent over the eons that now the straits are clearly visible. All good things come to an end.

Our philistine nature combined with remorseless behaviour drives us to make iconic progress in science and technology both constructive and destructive. Nonchalant of the fact that life has taken control of our senses. We are mute spectators watching the gladiator in an open ring fight for his life. With the bloodbath over, we go down to the ring to clean the spot before another one comes in. The need to be socially responsible towards environment and life draws upon us once the scene of decimation comes to a close.

Albeit the cleaning up process be it in the name of poverty eradication, human rights issues of relocating refugees, environmental upgradation, making access to safe drinking water and sanitation, clean fuel and energy, cultural transcendence, community counselling and so on all comes for a price. Thus the show of going for more never ends. Self realisation is just but a paradox. 

The cleansing ewer

All social beings are freedom loving. We all steer towards minds' potpourri, contemplating hard no matter whether we are a struggling or a priviledged class. But where do we all go to restore our preserval? Where do we mull over our life's slippages? Where do we queue up for a candid soul - searching talkfest? Get ourselves free from the stereotyped and stale schtick?

Cafes, bar lounges, community clubs, libraries, spas, lakeside parks, or sitting at the attic or at the garden terrace? Or while we enjoy a drink and listen to soothing music over a friend's place or at a pet turf? How about a weekday lunching out on your own? Or it might be on some religious chattel or archealogical sites at your place?  Idling away "your" time on a pal tola nouka if your are fortunate enough to belong to a riverfront habitat? 

 

When my parents were posted outside their hometown I always watched my mom fuss over while choosing a house, especially the one that had a patio, the one with a larger patio and the one without a patio. Her selective inbuilt trait always opted for the second preferrence. My dad just followed her taste, he had a more salt and pepper expression towards the art of living. Over the years I had found my mom, on her off-days, embracing the kitchen and the flower garden outside our patio with a spirit even greater than holding onto the reins of the domiciliary life.

What was so special about a patio that my mom puppy loved it? I never asked her. Growing up I was more like a creeper blending in to my parents' likes and dislikes plucking and preferring one comportment over the other that knitted to my pubescence maturity.

Just like my mom, I too was drawn to the patio overlooking the small patch of our garden. I longed for the twilight hours knowing well that homework would soon be done with. Slipping out quietly with a book in hand and a glass of icy lemonade on sultry summer days, I snugged up on a cushioned rattan chair on the patio. Before starting to devour the book in hand, I breathed in the garden whiff emanating from the buds and flowers. I feasted my eyes on the trampled leaves on the walkway, damp earth neatly piled up hemming in the shrubs or the spade and the trowel concealed by a ripply bush. The lawnmower, the watering can and the insecticide spray bottle would be stowed away behind a hedge adjacent to our patio. The birds flocking to their nest.

Sometimes my mom plodded late into the evening hours working away silently over the rose bushes or the kitchen garden. She scrutinised every detail of the plants or the fruits they bore, ripe or raw, moth-eaten or healthy. Buttoned up in the nature's cortege she did not even press me for leaving my study table so early. At other times she would sit on the patio closely overlooking our weekly gardener's landscaping and planting skills. It was her early morning ritual to take a hike around the garden tending to the plants for a short time or making a mental note of, sipping her morning cuppa on the patio, what was needed to be ministered to later in the day in "her" time.

The patio was her ark of mental retreat. "Her" time which she only cared for and nourished wholly. Free from daily household and professional routines and worries, the patio served her as a palette of life's spectrum. Mother Nature enveloped her train of thoughts or a book satiated her insights. A cup of tea at the patio helped her hit off a conversation with family over a problem. The vast expanse of the sky looming large above embalmed her life's twinges. Those times had not yet ushered in the dotcom era so a letter from a friend or family from distant lands would be opened, read and re-read on the patio. She was high on social circles and so letters, carrying good, bad and general tidings were always addressed to her. Naturally she was predisposed to answer them not at the study table but sitting tight and comfortable at the patio chair. Her letter pads, pen, stamps and gluestick commanding the table before her. No family members were allowed to come out at the patio during that time. Her flawless handwriting, unsmudged paragraphs and fresh thoughts neatly combed the blank letter page. When the daylight was good enough she would pour over the local dailies sitting at the patio.

No doubt the patio acted as a fillip to her concentration and nurtured her mentally. Our entries, avenues and exits in life are well mapped in advance. Only to read it aloud, envisioning our success and slips at a spiritual level, and redefining our own existense needs a small space exclusive to one's own self. More like monitoring and evaluating one's own theories and ideologies and this is a day-in and day-out task. Not something like we do every quarter or once in six months sitting in closed confines of a four-walled room videoconferencing, with counterparts sitting miles away, over a corporate assessment. At the same time I'm not rebutting conferences or workshops, fairs and festivals, community hangouts or events where physical collaboration helps in stemming out ideas and philosophies for betterment. But we all need collaborating with one's own self for amelioration. Not engaging though during a hustle.

"Looking up and out, how can we not respect this ever-vigilant cognizance that distinguishes us: the capability to envision, to dream, and to invent? the ability to ponder ourselves? and be aware of our existence on the outer arm of a spiral galaxy in an immeasurable ocean of stars? Cognizance is our crest" - Vanna Bonta

The quest for ourselves, exploring the inner free voice, is mostly latent amongst us especially today when life starts at the push of a button. Enrolling for a meditation class helps but is this something you've been pushed to going with the flow or a thriving sense flooding your mind? No-one but only you are responsible for the intrinsic sparkle in environs best suited to one's own mind and reflex. An ewer is always handy helping you to penetrate and cleanse within.